100 Days

For the past couple of months I randomly saw this book, Resilient Hope by Christine Caine pop up on Facebook. A few days ago I was placing an Amazon order and there it was again— so I bought it.

It came this afternoon. I grabbed the book and went to sit on the porch. I was reading the back cover & noticed it was a 100 day devotional. 

My 1st thought was to start it on July 1st. My 2nd thought was what is 100 days from today?

Sunday, September 28, 2025 is 100 days from today! I laughed and say out loud “I see you there God”! 

When I talk to God I’m always asking him to show me the way, point me in the right direction or give me a sign.

This book coming today. Me actually taking it outside to look at it before throwing it in my pile of books I need to read. All God!

100 days from today Kevin and I will go to bed and wake up to a long awaited trial date. 100 days from today this hard fought battle will be coming to an end. 100 days from now God will be showing off. Just 100 more days!

I have 100 more days to grow my enduring faith in God! To have resilient hope that He is turning all things for His good! Thank you God I love it!

The introduction of this book had me in the first paragraph. Christine loves the Olympics and so do I. She is telling a story about an Olympian with great endurance and even brings up Hebrews 12. A passage I have loved since I was teen. A passage that took on new meaning when we began this battle.

Hebrews 12:1-3 “Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne. Think of all the hostility he endured from sinful people; then you won’t become weary and give up.

Endurance- the ability or strength to continue despite fatigue, stress or other adverse conditions.  

Faith-complete trust in someone (God)

Enduring faith is what I have in God. He is in the middle of all this and He is working. I need only to pray and praise. 

Day 1 is called Marvelous Faith. It’s about the centurion in Luke 7 that Jesus was marveled by his faith. I want to get to heaven someday and Jesus say “this one has faith like that centurion”. 

I want Him to be able to say she fearlessly stood up to the giant because she knew I was standing with her!

Built on the Rock

Why do we ever doubt how amazingly spectacular our God is? Just why?

I think its so not much that I doubt him, but I have questioned: Why? How much longer? Do you hear my cries? Is there an end in site? Are you there God? We humans are such an impatient bunch of people.

I have to remind myself: 2 Peter 3:8-9 “But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness.”

I started a new Bible Study this week on the book of Habakkuk. Who knew 3 little chapters could pack such a punch. Habakkuk is crying out to God asking why he is silent? He is questioning how good can God be if he is allowing so much evil and hate in the world. One of the main points of Habakkuk is that we must exercise faith in the face of chaos. Let the darkness in your world be an invitation to put even more faith in our awesome God and trust His timing.

This morning as I was heading out to the porch to spend some time with Him he gave me a little wink. I looked up as I was opening the backdoor. That’s when I magically saw through the paint, trim and sheetrock and remembered the verse written on stud above that door I was about to walk out: “His mercies are new every morning”, Lamentations 3:23

A smile came to my face as I thanked God for reminding me my home is literally covered in His word! Family and friends stopped by and took the time to write His word on our house. Friends that couldn’t come text me specific verses to write on our home. I even saw a few verses written by the guys that were part of building our home.

I felt this little wink from God was not only a reminder, but God saying “I see you”. I see you going out this door every morning and soaking up my word. I see you talking to me throughout your day. I see you not letting this trail consume you because you know I have you. He is so sweet to assure me again and again that He is with me.

After my time with him this morning I grabbed my phone and started looking at those verses covering our house. I zoomed in to read some of them. I laughed because some of the verses appropriately matched the room they were written in.

This morning I thanked God that our house was built on the rock! In 2021 we took a leap with Him. We left what we thought was our forever home in Alabama, our boys, our secure jobs and 18 years of friendships to follow His promptings and come back to our farm in Kentucky. We prayed and listened to him with each step we have taken on this journey. We have let Him be our guide and we will continue to trust Him on this journey.

 Matthew 7:24-27 “Everyone then who hears these words of mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house on the rock.  And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house, but it did not fall, because it had been founded on the rock.  And everyone who hears these words of mine and does not do them will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell, and great was the fall of it.”

This home is built on the rock!

Suck it satan! You can bring on the rains, the floods, the winds and try to beat us down. IT WON’T HAPPEN! I am built on the rock! My husband is built on the rock! Our home is built on the rock and our farm is built on the rock! My trust is in the Lord!

Well that was fast…

As I type this we are two days away from closing on our house in Alabama. I am sitting here on a mattress that is sitting on the floor in our bedroom. I am surrounded by a mostly empty room in a mostly empty house. My mind is constantly storing away memories of the last 17 years living in this little paradise. Our boys were 4 and 6 when we moved here and now they are 21 and 23. So much life happened here. I am really going to miss so many things about our little house with the most amazing backyard. I am thankful for being that girl that takes too many pictures and has a good memory. I will treasure those pictures and memories!

I want to start by saying I am also that girl that is a planner and likes to work out every little detail. I make list and I check them off. Its funny on the enneagram I am a 7w6, but I have a lot of 2 and 3 in me. Usually when something big happens I have a plan and steps to get us from point A to point B. If I don’t have a plan I tend to worry or am constantly trying to figure out all of the what if’s that could happen. That has not been the case this time. I have had total trust in God. I have complete faith He is working all this out. I am very thankful that my faith in God is so strong, because this has not been an easy process. It has been very fast and I believe that is because of our trust and faith in God’s plan.

Our house went live as “coming soon” on Friday, July 23rd. Our open house was Sunday, July 25th and by Wednesday, July 28th we had a few offers. No matter how many times you were hear the market is hot right now or your house is going to sell so fast you don’t believe it until it actually happens. AND when it actually happens sometimes its too good to be true. I won’t go into all the details, but we accepted an offer that Wednesday night and although everything seemed great I had this uneasy feeling and a couple of things happened to give my husband a bad vibe as well so we weren’t shocked the following Wednesday when our realtor called to say they backed out. Okay and what do we do now was all we asked? It was the day of our 25th anniversary so we went about our special day and didn’t worry about the what if’s of our house. Our realtor, Jessi reached out to a couple that didn’t get a chance to look at the house and some of the offers we turned down and within 24 hours we were back under contract.

Kev and I both felt more at ease about this offer. Everything was happening to us a little different than what we had been hearing about the current market, but it has felt right this entire month. Every step has gone great and Jessi has been so awesome in answering all our crazy questions.

Throughout the past month we have had a few more little God Winks I wanted to mention. We have a few neighbors that have chickens and our roosters like to crow at each other. Due to our crowing roosters I became Facebook friends with one of my neighbors. When she saw I needed to find homes for my girls she and her husband came over and got a few of them. Through Jennifer we were introduced to her father-in-law Mr. Johnny. He and his wife came and got a few of our chickens, the coop and the fence. Not only was it a blessing that they kept most of my girls together, but they took their home. Comfort for the girls and less for us to have to clean up. Mr. Johnny ending up coming back two more times and took so many things that would of gone to a dump because we just didn’t have time to sell them or room for them where we are going. I reached out to my friend Sally about getting some chickens and just days before her daughter was saying how she wished they could have a few more chickens so that was a little wink, wink. I can’t say enough about Lauren she alone is a God Wink! I really love her soul! She is just a good person and always full of life and positivity. We were downsizing and she was updating her kiddos bedrooms. I love how God works things out.

A few memories from our amazing backyard…

Signs everywhere

Be careful when you ask your mom and mother-in-law to pray for something to happen! Its seems that since we told our parents everything is happening in fast forward. When I pray I ask for God to show me the way, make it clear, help me to know Him from the devil. My husband said “I just told God I am a little on the stupid side when it comes to seeing things sometimes so knock me over the head Lord–make it clear”. It seems as though He listened because we are getting little God Winks here, there and everywhere. When I was telling my friends about the signs from God, she said they are God Winks and I really do love that!

My mother-in-law is not very good at keeping a secret so she kind of told everyone in Clay and surrounding areas about our plans to possibly move to the farm. This brought on an outpouring of love from family and friends that were so excited to hear the news. For us it was another God Wink. We knew moving home meant being able to be there for Kevin’s mom and my parents for this we were so grateful. What we hadn’t thought of was being there for our niece and her family. When Betty told us how excited Lori was to hear we were coming home it stopped us in our tracks. How she was excited to have family (besides Mamaw) close again brought tears to our eyes. We would be there to go to the girls stuff and the girls could stay with us and we could do family things together whenever we wanted. Something that 4 hours distance all this time has kept us from doing. Thank you God we love it!

We went home one weekend and took my mom, Betty, Faye and Linda out for lunch. We had the best time. I told Kevin this is something we can do once or twice a month when we are up there and not once a year. Then it dawned on me I could come pick them up whenever I wanted to and take them out to do fun stuff. Happy tears flowing–thank you God I love it!

My niece, Nadya lives with my parents. She is going to be a senior in high school this year. That’s a big deal. I am so grateful that I will get to be there for her this year. I can go to her soccer games, homecoming, help her get ready for prom, help her apply for college, graduation and all that great stuff. Thank you God, I love it!

Kevin is excited about farming his land. Getting his hands dirty on the land that his father worked so hard for. He is looking forward to walking the land with our friend Charlie Beavers who knows many a story about Frank and Darrell on the farm. He is grateful to know he will be there to mow his mom’s yard, fix things around her house and be just a phone call away. Thank you God, we love it!

Little Sadie and Emmy keep talking about spending the night with us on the farm. Going to creek to hunt for snakes and walking in the woods. It warms my heart to know they will be playing and having fun on the land their grandfather and great-grandfather loved so much. Thank you God, You are so good!

My uncle Rodney builds houses and called us offering to help us build a house on our farm. His son Tuc would be involved. I use to watch Tuc and Spence when I was teenager. I always said those two boys prepared me for raising my own boys. It was just another God Wink saying you are doing the right thing. Stop wasting time, stop half living and get on up to Kentucky. I could hear Him saying “follow your dreams, take that leap I’ve got you”.

We have lived here for 17 years and have never really sold a house so we decided to go ahead and reach out to a friend that is a realtor. We told her all about the house and all the work we have put into the last 2 years because we thought it would be our forever home. We knew the market in Huntsville area was hot right now and its a sellers market, but I was SHOCKED when she told me what they wanted to list our house for. Still in shock actually. Def a God Wink!

The few friends we have told are over the moon for us. They totally get it. A couple of our close friends even talk about the change in Kevin. How at ease he is and how the stress has left him. That God Wink is everything to me. Seeing my husband without anxiety because he knows what is coming. Thank you God, I love it.

I could go on, but I will leave it there. You get the picture. We are seeing God everywhere saying “trust me and go”. So we are doing it! We actually are trusting him so big that our timeline has moved up drastically. Our house will go on the market as “Coming Soon” July 30th and August 1st will be our first Open House.

Sometimes God gives you what you think you wanted to show you want you really need

Back in May a job opportunity presented itself to me out of the blue. I was beyond excited that this fell into my lap and was going to do my best to show that I really was the girl for the job. With each passing day my plate grew fuller and fuller. I began to question is this really what I want? I was quite happy where I am. Now it was as if I was going 90 to nothing–was this how it would always be in this new role? Is the title worth it? Is the money worth this? I began to question is this what I really want. I began to pray for guidance.

All the time this is going on with me, my husband is battling his own work demons. He had been doing the same job for nearly 15 years and in the same career for 24 years. He was so ready to just let it all go. He would tell me how he just wanted work outside, get his hands dirty, not be stuck at desk or have his eyes glued to a computer screen. I had been praying over him and his job for a long while. Little did I know God was about to answer in a huge and unexpected way.

The job opportunity ended up not working out and all I felt was relief. When I went home and told my husband he felt so bad for me until I told him how relieved I was that it worked out the way it did. I told him that I think God was showing me that this is not what I really wanted or needed. I told him I was going to continue to pray for Him to guide us both.

A few nights later my husband I are were talking about the farm and started having us a little “dream session”. I can not for the life of me remember how the subject even came up, but I know we were dreaming about the possibility of putting a cabin on the farm that way when we go to visit our family we have our own little place to stay. We really love the peacefulness we get when we are on the farm. Its in the middle of no where and all you hear are the sounds of nature, you see a million stars at night and its full of God’s creations. Kevin put a picture of the farm up on the TV and showed me where he always wanted to build and it was the exact same spot that I always loved. Its a beautiful spot with great views and backs up to the woods and a great little spot I use to go hunting with one of my boys.

That night we went to bed thinking about building a cabin on the farm for when we visit…

The night we picked our spot!